I have felt the deepest, darkest things you could ever feel.
I have wanted to die because what I was feeling was just more than I could handle.
I have wanted to end my physical human being-ness to succumb to the ever after, which it felt would be my escape.
It seemed so freeing, to be released from this human body.
I have hated myself so much that I have beaten myself up through constant exercise, malnutrition, and other physical abuses.
I have been there.
And I still have my dark days.
Where people worry about me.
Where I worry about myself.
Everything seems to be going wrong.
But, the deeper and darker these emotions I feel, the longer more joyous feelings come from it.
From the darkest places come the greatest, most magnificent light.
The longer I choose to stay here, to stay present, to stay human, the more joy comes.
Life isn’t always fair and it isn’t always easy.
But holding on through these really hard times makes you stronger.
There are so many, many good things coming.
So please just stay strong.
I promise you that it is all worth it.
Life is worth holding on to.
I still haven’t gotten past the really dark places, and I don’t think I ever will.
Because with the dark comes the light.
There is always going to be happiness and sadness.
I can’t pretend that pain will cease to exist after reaching a certain point in life.
But I can tell you that the longer you hold on to this precious gift of life you have been given, the more happiness you will see.
Will you take that risk?
Will you you take the risk of holding on and staying strong?
Will you have faith in yourself and in the universe that everything is working out for your highest and best good?
Will you take a leap into the unknown and live your wildest dreams?
Will you let go of fear?
Will you please see the dark an opportunity instead of pure misery?
Will you please take the risk of loving yourself?
I believe in you.
And I love you.
And I am always here for you.
I do my best every dray.
And that’s all I need to do.
That’s all you need to do.
Please stay strong.
I love you.
Sincerely yours from MyEmoHeart