It feels like I’ve been going through my quarter life crisis for about ten plus years now…
Everyday sitting on Craigslist, hoping to find, at this point, a job that will just allow me to make some money so that I can maybe see a movie or go out for coffee when I’d like.
At twenty four years old, (almost twenty five, yikes, the real quarter life!), I’ve yet again found myself living with my parents, jobless, and feeling hopeless about whether or not I will ever find any kind of profession that my suit my mercurial self.
I have thought I wanted to help others via the therapy route because I’m just so good at listening and everyone says that they feel like they can be their true self around me.
I have wanted to be an actress/singer/model/director/writer and spent lots of money trying to do all those…unsuccessfully.
I have wanted to be a chef/restaurant owner/speakeasy owner, and then changed my mind, again.
I have spent many a years babysitting up a storm, but honestly, I don’t really want to watch another kid in my life unless it is my own!
And let’s face it, I’m not the type that can work the normal 9-5, sit in an office all day, wear a lady suit, or do things for other people…
But, the thing is, I have been spending (wasting?) my time trying to do the socially acceptable thing, when in reality, what I really have to do is listen to my heart!
Listen to the real me… the one who says to me everyday, “Keyra, you can do ANYTHING you want. You can have your own business. You can wake up everyday and be happy. You can create your own future. You are strong and powerful!”
And then, last night, something clicked.
I’ve been waiting for that moment (some may call it the, “Aha moment”), which I’ve had very few of in life, where everything stops, you are directly in the moment, your heart is filled with love, and you just feel right.
And that happened last night!
Having been pleading to the universe for what seems like a lifetime to show me what my calling is, the universe finally opened up and answered, (or maybe I was just ready to listen).
Anyways, after having a wonderful yoga/meditation/discussion session with some friends and family, I found that my calling is centered around teaching yoga and helping others open their heart/come to realizations about their own truth.
I just felt right. I felt good. I felt like I was helping others and didn’t need anything in return.
It just happened.
And, damn, did it feel good!
Now, the question remains, how to follow this with focus (one-pointedness)?
Is this where my yoga training comes into effect? The notion of complete devotion, one-pointedness, patience, and the like?
And, as someone who has a very, kinda, not open root chakra (meaning I have money issues), how do I go about this whole entrepreneur route?
Asking myself all these questions… this email then popped up from Positively Positive in my inbox this morning, Confessions of a Highly Sensitive Entrepreneur , by the lovely new fave of mine, Selena Soo.
And I feel like the universe, yet again, is giving me building blocks to grow into the wonderfully beautiful young lady that I already am and am on the journey of finding once again!
Now if I can just remember to stop getting caught up in the doing, and get more caught up in the being… :)
Wealthy in love from MyEmoHeart